Thanks all for commenting... I am glad it could touch some people, although it wasn't my intention it definitley is a compliment. Treehouse, I need to think on the fact of how story telling immediatley allows individuals to connect to a person, i forget that story telling is such a powerful tool... Faith, I loved that you said there is no tragedy of life scale... i just might have to make a poem with that saying in it..oh I have been through trauma though, I just don't consider as bad as a lot of other peoples...Elliemay, why is this not common? i thought it was kind of common for a kid to think of doing something like that..i will probably do what faith said and send another email that discusses how I felt about bringing up this particular one in session, that was such a great idea from faith... my last therapist said i was a bit melodramatic a lot of the time and it hurt my feelings, guess I naturally think about that sometimes...and thanks rainbow, i'd like to think that no matter why we email, probably something within the reason we chose to email or not even the email itself is worth exploring, i mean it may be, but, the point i think you were trying to make is that our FEELINGS and THOUGHTS, whether in an email or not are worth exploring.
forgive me if i didn't mention everyones name in my comment-- just know I'm thankful for all of the comments.. lol

end of rant,
JAzz.Y.