So I've decided to write my T an e-mail telling her the things I'm most uncomfortable talking about - that I feel very attached to her, constantly think of her/miss her between sessions and have no idea how to make it through her upcoming vacation (three weeks without her!).

This might seem like an easy task, considering we already talked about my romantic feelings for her and she was perfectly fine with it, but... I don't know. A part of me really wants to talk more about these feelings, because I think the more I'll get it off my chest and get her feedback, the better I'll be able to deal with it.
But there's also my good old low self-esteem and embarrassment/shame about these things. I'd probably instantly regret sending this mail and wouldn't know how to face her afterwards... even though it would probably be good for me in the long run.

So I want... I don't know, motivation? Encouraging words? Hugs? I'm not sure, but it sure feels good to get this off my chest.