I am so sorry you had to go though this. Sounds like what I went though last summer that is how I got here, there was nowhere to turn. I wonder why are Dr.s not willing to help you when we finally get to the place where we really need help? That really bothers me. I suggest just try a nice warm bath or just get some quiet time to yourself and try your hardest to relax. I know it's hard when we get to that point. Don't feel bad calling your T. I wish you the best and hope you get some relief soon.