I'm nervous about my session tomorrow so I'm starting another thread. I want to talk about something very embarrassing to me. I don't know why I'm obsessing about this subject so much. I know my T accepts me and it's okay to talk about anything, but I hate feeling embarrassed in my session. I hate blushing and/or sweating, and having to run to the bathroom because I'm anxious. I almost wish she'd cancel tomorrow, which is so unlike me! I'd be miserable but I'm miserable thinking about these issues again too. I can't take a break and switch to something else either, because this stuff is on my mind.

For all my apparent bravery in my threads and in talking to my T about anything, I'm really so shy. I will talk to her; I know that, but how do I stop from being so embarrassed? We do breathing first but last week I couldn't relax even with that! I keep asking her if it's okay to talk about whatever it is and she says yes, of course. I believe her and I trust her. Then, why is it so hard?