Thanks guys. I guess i'm just worried about what people would think if they knew what I did. But I try to tell myself that it wasn't a big deal. So it really is a trivial thing to be worrying about? I can't seem to get that through my head.

I also have a hard time classifying what this was in my head. I don't know if this was sex or what. I suppose it was masturbation, but I just don't know. I try to tell myself that I was a kid, but was 12 really the age of a child? I just feel like I should have known better. I had masturbated prior to this incident so I keep thinking that it was no longer curiosity at this point. So many thoughts running through my head.... looking for closure.