Depression. So much I was almost paralysed. Anyone looked at me funny, I'd burst into tears. Feeling so hopeless and like life was pointless.

I obviously left it too late, as a month after I started meds, I had a sui attempt. Landed me in hospital and straight away was told I had to really get into therapy.
At that stage, I was happy to hold on to anything that may help me.
Again, my hypomanic episodes were obvious in hindsight, but I assumed it was just me in a good mood. But they weren't dangerous.

I guess I stay on my meds because I still have those depressive dips and I can only imagine how much worse they'd be if I wasn't on meds. And anxiety meds are always good!