For me it was a deep, dark, consuming, never ending depression...... I have battled my whole life ( as far as I could remember from childhood ) with depression, and it finally came to a head in 2005, when I was placed in impatient....... Since then, still a constant battle with depression, with very few i guess you would call then Hypomanic episodes......I truly THANK GOD for meds, as if I didnt have them I probably would be dead......