Hmmm, for me I guess it was mostly the mania and psychosis. Worrying about history repeating itself, doing things like trying to convince police officers that I was being followed and going to be shot by a girl, pulling over a taxi driver and grabbing his radio to "call" the police for help. Of coarse in the end there was no girl.

I have way too many stories like this to even remember, I am so lucky that I am still in one piece, and now that I have children I guess I'd just like to keep it that way. I truly wish to be non medicated, I just don't know that it is "safe" to do so.