I struggle being alone... I hate being that debby downer girl that noone wants to be around but I can only pretend for so long that I'm happy b4 I br8k again. My roommate said I'm family! But she's going to hang out. W/my ex tonight... she knows how I feel but I also made the mistake of telling her that I ddnt care if they hung out... I'm not her mom so I can't. Tell her not to hang out w/my ex... but it hurts though.. I know I still have feelings for my ex and I'm trying to avoid her. I ddnt sleep last night and I can't breath properly.. I feel like I have 100lb on my chest. What's wrong w/me!?!?