How many of you have dysphoric mania, or experience mania as anything but a good time? When I am hypomanic on the rise to mania, that part feels great, but it soon turns into horror. Once I am fully manic it is almost always a horrible experience. I don't know, didn't always use to be this way. I see my pattern like this:
Hypomania --> Mania --> Dysphoric (mixed)

This is my post medication pattern, every time. My pre medication pattern ended with mania, much of the time, but not always. Obviously this makes me crave mania much less, but it stinks. I've always wondered if it's the meds that bring me to dysphoric mainc state every time, or if it's just my natural progression. Also I get psychotic symptoms every time. Haha I really feel I am getting the short end of the stick with this.

Has anyone had a similar experience with this?