Hey Anika

I dont get the happy mania im on top of the world and i can do anything stuff

I get the paranoid everyone hates me or thinks im stupid but I cant turn my brain off and I of course dont sleep so I have plenty of time to beat myself up more so than when im not manic .I get the hallcination visual and auditory ,,very UNpleasant to say the least .

I just wish i could get a lil bit of hypo to perk me up so i can tackle some stuff .. Im feeling almost happy but that would be a first in 2 + years so the thought of " happy" literally scares me .. I plan on talking to my T about it tomorrow ..