Alright I'm done w/ appt. so friggen embarrasing facing him. I just plopped on the couch & started blurting out I'm sorry...he said no it's ok, you expressed your anger...
I asked him if when he read it outta the blue he was like WTF? & he's like yeahhhh I kinda was like WTF lol. Then we laughed a bit bout my stapler comment haha

He was concerned what was going on this past weekend-why I was so bad...& then we started talking bout why I feel the way I do bout him.
I told him flat out I think he portrays a 'idgaf' attitude! He said he makes a lotta ppl angry sometimes but that's just the way he is! He does care

He told me back when he was in T school, he was talking to his professor about getting his master thesis published & the professor was telling him all this work he needed to do to get it published & mid sentence the professor stopped and asked 'are you bored??!' lol my T so no, no I was just thinking what I need to do.
So I guess he just kinda looks that way?! Lol. I asked him if he's burnt out & he said no but he does look forward to his retirement.

I feel a bit better. I feel like he really wanted to know what I was seeing from him that kept me going back to 'he doesn't care'. But if just looks that way naturally then I'm not sure much can be done about that but I am glad he asked & really wanted to know if it was something HE was doing....

As usual the session ended too early for me :/. Now the waiting game for 2 more days.....