Why take it on God? You seem to have this social anxiety, fear of interaction... and you put it on God.

Sure, dealing with people is hard. Many of us have the problem. But you seem almost obsesivelly insist on punish yourself (it's not Gods work) by staying out of life... for whatever reason. I don't know you.

Nothing is going to happen if you interact people... and if thing happen, well, it's mostly coincidence, sometimes a screw up on one side.... but I doubt God has anything to do with it. There's bigger trouble in the world and God(s) don't seem to care... why would they care if you interact with people?