I have back to back sessions this week-tomorrow night and thursday morning and knowing that if I could open up some tomorrow night, I wouldn't have to wait long to get right back in there and deal with whatever emotions are bound to come up- make sense?

Over half a dozen therapists in 20 years and I have never even entertained the thought of discussing these things. Maybe because I am getting older and see how this is affecting so many areas of my life still today, maybe I want to make a valid attempt at healing...... we have been talking for a couple of months about me just needing to feel like I have a safe place and why so many of my behaviours and thoughts are aimed at protecting myself....I feel like this is the elephant in the room that needs to come out. But I am scared.