I hate watching food or grocery commercials and going to restaurants watching people eat as well. It creates disgust and anxiety in me. I don't like being around people if I finally give into my cravings for food because I feel weak like an overeater is because I feel like I'm going to get extremely big each time I eat or even get near food. I don't know why my feelings are so strong but they are. I'm just terrified of food and have been my whole life. Half of my family is obese and watching them eat freaks me out and leads me to believe eating any food will make me like them.