it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that i have a whole week before seeing her again... the day after session is always so hard i am on this emotional rollercoaster of love, hate, envy, neediness, anger, sadness, loneliness, and i just want to see her right now she lets me write or text or call (although i'm too scared to call) between sessions, but this is just a general blahness that needs to be discussed in person because it's all based on last night's session and getting to know some things about her, and wanting to know more and wanting to know HER more. this can't be discussed through email. god, i don't know how i am going to make it the whole week. and the worst part is that i am going to be so drained by these emotions by next monday that i won't feel as passionate about it and won't talk about it. and then the cycle continues. god i hate myself.