I'm trying to be strong. I had an affair and fell in love with another man. I haven't seen him since last summer and haven't even had sex with him in over a year. The worst part about this is he hates me now and we talked for the past couple months for him to cut all communication. While I know it's for the best and were no good for eachother, it's still so hard. I just miss being understood, we had so much in common. I miss that we had so much in common and could talk for hours.
I'm trying so hard to heal, it's hard to heal, be strong, deal with all these feelings and realize I've hurt him. I miss my best friend. I miss being understood, I miss him.