I feel guilty for not wanting to honor my mother. I'm not supposed to complain and have a bad attitude, so I'm not supposed to say it anymore. But I sang a song for church with the choir, about mother always being there, ... and thought I should have felt something, but that song just wasn't about my mother. And I feel guilty for not being a good mother either. T wants me to see how I use and mistreat people, and as much as I hate it and never intentionally wanted to use and mistreat people and be selfish, I can see it. I haven't been a good mother. Most of the time I hurt too much and felt trapped and resented being trapped because I never had a break from the kids and couldn't do anything. Now I'm a workaholic and don't have enough time for them. I have no right to think my mother wasn't good enough. I'm not good enough either, no matter what anyone says.

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