Squiggle, it's my 2 year anniversary with T too but I don't think she cares and I'm embarrassed about it for some reason.

Dear T,

I feel like I screwed up today!! But so did you! Why did you say you wouldn't talk to me like I wanted you too. Why?????? I know why but I disagree.

I feel like a failure.

I heard you yawning at the end of the session. I didn't like that.

I'm fighting the attachment to you again. It's too familiar. I told you it felt different and that I'm not fighting it. I don't know which is the truth.

I hate the T relationship right now! You say you're not judging me. Of course, because it's your job not to judge me.

I feel sorry for myself and my stupid pattern. I hate it but I can't stop it. I have to accept it but I can't stand feeling so depressed after therapy. You know I want more from you that I can't have.