I'm sorry about the loss of your father and your FIL's illness now. I lost my sister last fall and I still have had no reaction. I don't know if that is unusual at all. I'm just numb about everything, as I'm sure you are too. Don't be too hard on yourself. You need room and connection to people that love and care about you. You're ever so lucky that your FIL loves you so much. Hold onto it, treasure it and inhale it while you can.

Take care of you MKAC.