I pay for missed sessions and in 8yrs have missed one. She has given me 2 time slots which have been mine for all this time. She works from home and works privately. I'm not sure why she should act like a "mother" in that regard? If I'm ill I pay not that I have been. Underneath all the 'unfairness' is the fact she has set asise these hrs and expects to be paid so she can keep her finances straight. Its not sch its a contractual agreement between to adults. Why should she be be out of pocket because I had a cold or whatever? She can extend her best wishes for my recovery isn't that enought? I guess I don't feel victimised in life anymore, I view through adult eyes more.

Oh and therapy is about more than our actually being there. Its knowing she is 'holding' my time slots even though I amy not be there. its knwoing that those time slots are ours on such a deep level that I can use that thought to help me even when not there. Its that feeling of it being mine. Imagine sitting at home thinking of your time slot and knowing someone else maybe sitting there as. 'Fill in' doesn't feel so close and unique between you both then??? A fee and commitment go deeper than 'its being fair'?