Well, I am not actually dreading the appointment itself.. but that it will get canceled or something will come up and won't be able to make it there. I know it is probably my own anxious thoughts.. and in reality, I will be sitting in T's office at 3pm today... but I am feeling so nervous that I am going to get a call from his receptionist this morning telling me we have to reschedule. I know it wouldn't be the end of the world, but at the same time.. I just want to go in there and talk to somebody who gets it.. knows how bad I have been, make it at least feel like I am making progress towards getting rid of the anxiety.

It doesn't help.. that when I intially started going to thearpy (at the same practice, this past summer).. I was seeing a different T.. who had medical issues, and I got so many calls to say we had to reschedule, until one day his receptionist called and said we will call you back when he is finally back in the office. That was hard.. as far as I know he is still out, and I didn't wait for them to call me back.. I finally got them to get me in with my current T.. So, that looms in my mind as well. I am really hoping I can make it unitl 2:30 w/o incident.. by that time I will be on my way, and in the clear!