I am still dealing with the news of it.... but seeing my Mom and my brother were dx as bipolar (the I found out later after I was Dx'ed that my one sister is too).... I guess so... I see things in them that I see in me, I see things in them that are not me or that I do differently.
I am a funny person, I went in and was like I think i have bipolar, they agreed to an extent- Bipolar 2 with severe PTSD... and then I went and saw a different Pdoc and asked for the Bipolar to be taken off due to I was not sure if I was... she mentioned, "you seem to have depression mixed with high agitation and anxiety:........ I guess; not totally positive what she was trying to say.

I took lamictal for a month, and either that was mixed state, or really bad rapid cycling when I was on it (T and I did not talk much on "what it was" but what I was doing and promising to not hurt myself till the next time i see her and some more coping things.. funny thing is in this time I felt awesome too and started my side business in a mess of a way.... I have just been highly anxious and irritable here lately so a little better)... I did not take anything else with the Lamictal (which I am seeing is a bad thing I guess with Bipolar)-- I am a little afraid to see my pdoc in about a week and half... I am afraid she will tell me to add anti-psychotics to the mix; which I was not planning on...

I am just still having problems accepting... but always knew I had mood swings that was a given to me... and slight to mild (maybe one or two times severe) depression, which is what took me in......
I am not sure if a few years ago they would call a manic state (not sleeping, running around paranoid as hell thinking all were out to get me, everyone in a plan out for me or what not, being odd (not showering, basically living on the streets but working too), and to be honest, I forget to tell them about it.... cuz I try to stick with recent things here as they seem to as well. and I am not sure if it was also due to I was trying to clean up off of hard drugs on my own (quiet them and tried to move away from people) it is surprising to me when I remember that.... (was not this way entirely when using hard drugs-- I showed, and had a bed of my own to sleep in).
sorry for the ramble.

Hope you all well and find what you need to cope.... I have been recently told by my general doctor, I need to stop smoking cigs, which is a big things with me.. especially when about to go "almost psychotic" with rage.