..and he is sure I have depression and OCD, and possible schizophrenia/psychosis. He seemed quite concerned actually..
Surprisingly I am feeling positive about this because I finally have a name for everything that is going on. My depression is getting worse though, along with the psychosis, and the school well-being team don't even know what to do. I went today and all she said was "think happy thoughts", I said I just couldn't, and she didn't understand, so :/

The thing is I can relate to every symptom of depression, and most of sz. They think it's adolescent-onset.

I know I sound ridiculous. Like every other whiny teen around. But I'm not lazy, I have lost every bit of motivation I had, and I want it back! I used to be so driven, a fighter. Now I just feel like curling up into a ball and crying, or taking a bunch of pills. I think about it a lot, but I just can't do it to my family. I can't focus or concentrate, I'm scared of myself, I'm scared of Fang (who is showing up a lot more now) and I don't see any hope in anything anymore. I hate this. I wish I could be like everyone else, complaining because they can't go out on Saturday or because they can't find the right dress for next year's prom or whatever. But no, I worry about if I will even reach my 16th birthday.

I don't even know why I am writing this, just wanted somewhere to say what's on my mind and what happened. I don't feel sorry for myself. Heck, It's the complete opposite. Sorry if I'm annoying.

~ WTTJ