I'm a 40 year old single woman with virtually no friends. I have a lifelong best friend but she's a busy single mom and can barely pay her bills, much less go out on the weekends. The few other friends I have are married with kids and live hours away. I have a handful of friends from my old job that I email/Facebook but we rarely get together because they too, are all married with kids. It just really sucks when you sit home night after night and have nobody to call or go out with.

Prime example. I just found out there is going to be a small event at a store by my house where they will have food trucks and beer and music. It sounds great and I would love to go, but have absolutely NOBODY to go with. I certainly don't want to go to a big social event alone... I would never do that in a million years. I have some social anxiety to begin with so going to something like this alone is absolutely out of the question. It really bothers me to think that I have nobody to even go grab some food with... go shopping with... go for a walk with... just simple little things.

I tried joining an aerobics class at the park last year hoping to meet some
friends. Nope. These women looked at me like I was Satan Herself and wouldn't even give me the time of day. I don't get it. I'm friendly and outgoing but nobody will talk to me. I think most women think that I'm gay and trying to hit on them and that's why they avoid me.

And men? Forget meeting men. I think instead of pheromones I emit some sort of Man-Repelling scent that causes them to run screaming in the opposite direction. Men think of me as their "buddy" or "one of the guys" and would rather chop off their own penis than be with me in a relationship.

I'm clean, attractive, intelligent, have a great personality, a good job, own a home, etc. Yet people are so repelled by me and I will never understand it. I try so hard to be nice, helpful, friendly to everyone... and just continually get it stuck up my keester.

I've never had alot of friends. I remember being in first grade and the kids not wanting to play with me. I struggled with lonliness until I was in high school and made a few very close lasting relationships... but again, those girlfriends are now grown women with husbands and kids and have all moved very far away.

Sigh... Thanks for listening.