Thank you, kindachaotic.
I have been to therapy and it was very helpful. I learned that it wasn't my fault and that it didn't mean I was worthless. My parents, I'm sure, did the best they could but they had their own issues, obviously. I've forgiven my parents and have tried to move past all of that.

I'm just not sure what's driving these feelings that I'm having now. I'm not even sure how to describe them. I just feel as though I'm missing something inside (how's that for cliche?!).