The best part is I live in Chicago... a massive city with millions of people... and I can't make a single friend! I struggle to pay a mortgage on my own so I don't have a ton of money to spend on taking classes or things like that. I'm always checking for free or low-cost things to do through the park district or library, but again, many things you just don't want to do alone. I usually just walk my dogs and spend most of my time with them. There aren't even any dog parks around where I could take them to meet people, other dog lovers like me.

I've tried online dating and after a few really bad experiences have given up on that. I'm on Facebook WAY too much but have joined some groups and started talking to a few people. But they have their own families and problems and we certainly aren't going to be BFF's. Plus most of them live out of state.

So let's face it... what happens when I get old?

That is my main concern and the thing that freaks my mother out the most. What happens when I get old and have no one to help me? What if I get sick and end up in the hospital? What if I have major surgery and can't walk? I could go on thinking about the 'what if's'... I'm terrified about dying alone someday. Right now all I have is my parents and we are very close but they are getting older and have health issues and I know they won't be here forever. Then what? I have my best friend who I know will be there no questions asked, but what if something happens to her? It overwhelms me and terrifies me to think that there may be a day that I'm dying in the hospital completely ALONE. You always see those poor people in nursing homes who have nobody visiting them and you feel so bad... that's how I'm going to end up.