Don't really know what triggers people, but there's talk of sex and not being good enough, just fyi. And a lesbian relationship, so please don't queer bash.

So, I'm seeing this girl, and she's amazing and beautiful and smart and strong despite her weaknesses, and caring, and just all around wonderful. She's an artist, and an English student who loves analyzing social trends, and she's struggles with anxiety and abandonment issues...

And despite all of that I feel like I'm being a terrible girlfriend. Me and her have been seeing each other on and off for a few years now but we've never really had the ability to just be together until now.

And it's really awkward! I'm usualy really creative and active in bed, but I just feel so awkward around her. I feel like I can't give her what she needs. And I can't, we've talked about it. Though I can give what she wants to other, and have before!

She's really petite and delicate in build, but I know she's really tough and is a masochist and sub. But every time I see her I want to be a knight in shining armor! I don't want to hurt her, and I want her to feel special and beautiful. I'm worried I'm making her into a glass statue, and trying not to, but she's just so wonderful.

I really want to deepen the relationship, and I know she wants to too, but whenever were around each other it's like schoolyard romance in grade 3 or something. How can I break down the walls that we have. I really do want to be wonderful for her, and I really do love her, and want to be better for her and everything. I just hate putting my stuff on her, even though I know she can take it, and I hate the idea of hurting her, even if I know she likes it, or doing dirty talk, even though I know she wants me to.

Just thought I'd put it out there, see what you guys thought or figured, or have been through and see if there's any advice that could be useful?

KLove