I'd just like to remind everyone that it does take two.........and I'm getting pretty tired of the man getting off easy in these types of situations. He was not forced to flirt with you. He is a grown man, this musician guy........supposedly. He'd better act like it. And I'd be willing to bet money that he has in fact cheated on his wife, probably more than once. He probably did not contact you these past few weeks because his wife is "on to him" or maybe even decided to come along on his trip. It seems like he sought you out because maybe he was able to pick up on your vulnerability. I'm not saying you are completely innocent, but you are experiencing an unhealthy relapse of some sort. Thank goodness, it did not go any further for everyone's sake. And if it did, it wouldn't be you alone 'ruining' his marriage and family. It's HIS responsibility to protect his marriage and his family. The MAN has a choice, he is not helpless against his desires for what is most likely a sexual fling. This is what I've found mostly motivates immature men. The men who cheat on their wives. You are not a habitual cheater or adulterer, or you wouldn't feel half as bad about what's going on. You may have come close to cheating, but you have overcome this challenge so far. He will try again to contact you. I would do everything in your power to resist speaking to him. Change your email if at all possible!! so he cannot contact you that way. If you must see him for work, please be strong, and do not fall for any sweet talk, or games he will try to play with you. This is not the man for you. You have already found the one you should be with. This is your own issue that has resurfaced as perhaps a type of test to see if you have conquered your attraction to UNHEALTHY men. It is a TEST, only a test!! You have not failed. If you stay strong, and stay away from this sort of temptation, you will have passed, and your mind and emotions will be at peace again. You will have hopefully grown. See it for what it is, and please see this guy Moss for what he is. A player. Scum growing on a stone. Keep rolling and the moss will get scraped off. The FACT is, he is married and seeking another woman, something is obviously weak in his marriage. Do not fall into the trap because you will become the scapegoat for the problems him and his wife are having. You are trying to get better, you do not need to tangle yourself in anothers' spider web. Be strong!!!!!! You have narrowly escaped a disaster, thank your lucky stars!
Oh, and eventually when this passes, maybe you can try the piano or even another instrument again. You may think you have failed at that (you haven't, it's only an illusion). If you love playing, you should not deny yourself that joy because of your fears. Something to look into that I found so interesting about music (which I know very little about) the solfeggio frequencies and cymatics. They are supposed to be very healing. Look it up, maybe you can learn to play that scale. That would be really cool, because I don't believe a lot of people know how to play in that musical scale, and I think genuine recordings are becoming more in demand........something new and healthy to 'obsess about'............Good luck and peace to you.