Today I got up, made breakfast all was good until I got frustrated with my 4 year old and yelled at her. She cried and my husband came to me to tell me that I frightened her. I had already realized this and was resentful as well as I already felt guilty about it so I snapped at him, he got frustrated I got dramatic.
I think part of it was that things were not working out the way I wanted them to. I sat outside and cried. Both my 4 year old and my hubby came to hug me. Instead of letting it go I became more upset that now my breakfast was cold. Hubby offered to reheat it.
I just got more upset ran around the house and cried, threw myself on the floor. Then when I was very transfused I feel back into my old ways and hit myself in the face and head over and over.
That just made me feel worse. I wish I would have just stopped way before it went to far but I did not. In fact I do not. Any thoughts on why I do this or how to stop it?
I really would like to get a grip on my emotions so I do not have to feel bad about it for days. Then I just feel bad over and over the cycle.