So your out of hospital? If so im glad i hate being admitted. Were you hospitalized privately or via the NHS if you don't mind me asking? Im glad your feeling more independent and your flats looking good (ive recently done mine up - its a good feeling init?) I know your still in a lot of pain and things still feel very scary, but you've made it this far and now you have an oppertunity to start afresh. Go for it - we're all rooting for you. Sending hugs (if ok)