Im 17. I've had schizophrenia for around 3 years. I'm being treated for it. But life is hard. I get suicidal thoughts and feelings all the time. Sometimes I want to throw myself out of a moving car. But I'm not gonna do it cuz I'd go to hell.. I'm a christian, but god burdens me now more than he did when I was healthy. I get angry at him. I know he loves me but it sure doesn't feel like it. It feels like he wants to destroy me. I hear voices too. They hate me and I hate them. They've put me through so much. I used to get voices accusing me coming out of people but that has gotten better. That was a hard time when that was going on.. I hope it never happens again. I also get depressed now and then. Thanks for listening. I may add more later.