Okay, so i probably shouldnt post here because i'm not Bipolar, but you guys have always helped me out in the past.

I've recently moved away from home for my new job. Moved into this house share, with 3 guys and 1 woman. We all moved in within the same week so no one knows each other.
Over the past month, me and this guy Miles have been spending ALOT of time in the kitchen talking and talking, every night really.
Long story short, i'm getting addicted to it, i talk to the others but get annoyed if there isnt a time its just me and him. I know he likes to talk to me as well, but i doubt he gets really stressed out if he cant.
I'm BPD and havent entered a new relationship of this kind for a LONG time, all the people who i am clingy and attached to, are people i have known since i was a young teen.
I avoid getting close to people at all costs.
But as i am lonely here being away from all my friends, it was har to stop it before it started.
I act rational around him, he doesnt know how serious our relationship has become to me, but every day i feel more and more intensely. I dont know how to cope with these emotions. When he isnt here, i feel sad and anxious, when he is here, i spend every second i can with him.
It isnt the case of sexual attraction either, when i first saw him i wasnt the least bit attracted to him.

He had a girl to stay for the weekend and i went kinda crazy in my room.

The thing is though, this makes me realise how i will never be able to have a normal relationship with someone, if we were attracted to each other and maybe getting to the point of something else happening, the feelings would drive me insane and i'd not be able to handle it.
Its good its purely platonic.
he finds talking about psychological stuff interesting, as do i, so we talk at length about our personality traits and things like that, and somewhere along the way i told him that i was onced diagnosed as bipolar.
Tonight he bought that up again saying he could see why i was diagnosed as bipolar, (he doesnt understand it fully) as i seemed to have 2 distinct and opposing sides to my personality.
I told him that i was actually diagnosed with BPD, which i was surprised he had heard of.
Then a flat mate walked in at that precise moment and was being really annoying by not leaving the room.
SO, it stopped there and now i'm confused and anxious and i feel like i never want to see him again, yet all i want to do it go and knock on his door, and stay in his room with him forever.

A MONTH i've known him. I've been so careful for so many years to not get attached to anyone else. I promised myself that i would never do this! why cant i control myself?

More importantly where do i go from here?