If you are so worried about your child, you should do something to fix the relationship if possible- go to a therapist- if he does not agree, leave.

You and your child do not deserve such a dreary life

If your child grows up seeing you and your husband in such a loveless relationship, what kind of relationship is your child likely to end up in? Look what happened in your childhood and how that has affected you

Yes, negative things have happened to you in your life but only you can take control of your life and change it if you wish

wish you all the best