No wisdom to offer really other than im so sorry this happened to you and i hope you manage to bounce back soon. Is there nothing at all, perhaps something you really like doing that will help energise you a bit and help preoccupy your attentions? Have you looked into other ways of maybe being able to access a different therapist or even counselling? It sounds like you might need to be put on medication but of course you will need to get evaluated first. Good luck getting the help you need and please don't give up, you deserve to get better and everyone on here is certainly rooting for you. Sending hugs (if ok)