Thank you all. I'm gonna do some reading and stuff, but I'll probably reply to some posts and stuff.

So, a little about me.. I am 35, have played music in bands and recorded a few cd's, and am working currently on a new recording project of my own. I have an ever growing number of tattoos (sleeved arms). Uhm.. I have a ****** attitude, and I think people hate me, and I don't much care for them either. Always have been extremely moody, even when I was really young. My dad committed suicide when I was about 5, and he was extremely moody as well, so I wouldn't doubt he was bipolar.

My mom, as well, was extremely moody and has been diagnosed (from afar) as possible bipolar. She's also a major asshole that I have a hard time talking to.

and up to this point, life has been a blur.. mostly me doing crazy *****, and then winding up in the hospital ready to end it all. I got referred back to my clinic where they told me it was bipolar and not ADHD. I used to go off my meds alot because I thought it was only ADHD and I used to drink and do alot of drugs. I know I can't do that stuff anymore, which doesn't make me sad at all, I kinda hated doing the stuff anyways, but it was an escape I guess.

Ok, so that's more about me. I appreciate the hugs.