I'm embarrassed and feel foolish. I've been acting like a regressed, needy 10 yo seeking approval from her father where you're concerned and that's wrong. I'm an adult, and acting and feeling like a needy child is wrong. I need to keep my emotions in check, especially where you're concerned. Our relationship has been the center of my life and thoughts for the past several weeks, and that's not good. I've been depending on that relationship too much. I've given you too much power over my life. The kind of need I've been feeling, and the vulnerability I've been showing in session is for children. And I'm not a child - well, I can act and feel like one occasionally. I can heal her. I don't need to keep embarrassing myself and you. The self disclosure, total honesty, total vulnerability b-lls-it is for children. Adults need to self monitor and not blurt out every babbling thought and feeling that pops into their heads the way I have been.

I've got to stop depending on a T to meet my needs,, or to be there for me like a father. When I do that, unanswered email (like last week) from you translates into rejection from my dad. It hurts to need someone that much - you can be hurt too easily, as you're only human (one of you, 40 clients). I'm a grown woman, not a little girl, seeking her father's approval. I have to meet my own emotional needs, my own needs for approval through what I do everyday, and through my relationship with the important people in my life.

I need to grow up and keep my feelings in check. I've become, in therapy and with you, too needy, too emotional, too childish - I've let myself regress and let the wounded girl emerge. The teddy bear and the wounded child need to stay in the closet where they belong. I can't risk letting these new memories emerge - I'm done with therapy. I'm tired - I can't deal with you anymore.