I'm just trying to protect myself really, one day, he will move out, or god forbid have a bad day at work and not feel like talking in the kitchen all night and i will feel rejected..
So yes i do need love, but i need more than anyone can give.
Especially a house mate who just sees me as an interesting distraction while cooking and eating his dinner, washing his plates and having cups of tea.
We bought a blender together tonight. The shop assistant mistook us for a couple. Couldnt help but want that so much,
I'm such a fool,.