I really like Abilify. It has helped a lot with my depression/sui thoughts/hopelessness. It doesn't really balance my mood as well as I'd like, but it does help me to avoid the really scary stuff.

I hope that it gets you out of your "blah" mood! The best thing about Abilify is that it works fast, within days-a few weeks. Contrast that with the 4-8 weeks you'd have to wait for an antidepressant to take effect!