Fake It Until You Make It,

I don't think you are being fake. You have been living from your how to tapes and that wasn't you it was what you were use to seeing. So you didn't know who you were, you just became what you saw in the ghetto. That mentally that can destroy you if you don't make it out with a determination never to return, not to the neighborhood but the mindset of you don't deserve what God has blessed you to finally obtain. Don't listen to people who want you to stay in the same place because if you don't move then won't feel they have an excuse for staying the same. It least you give them hope that if you got awaY, with faith and determination they can too.