Congratulations, Storm, on taking those first steps and on taking risks in putting yourself out here. Hopefully you will come to feel safer doing so as you do it more. But "baby steps" is fine.

I know what you mean about T sessions bringing all kinds of stuff to the surface, and that can make everyday life seem harder to cope with. But, for me, the thing about T sessions is I hope it will enable me to cope better in the longer term. If it can stop me relapsing into depression in future, or even make the episodes less severe, then that makes it worth it for me, painful as the experience is.

Hang in there, and I hope you are able to share some of this with T. I have been known to print off my posts and emails and take them to T, or even email them to him before sessions.

Be safe