Hello Runningeagleruns, Yes your post has been read, by 33 people, there's a count you can see on right side column.

Really sorry you are struggling. You say you are being treated for it but you're still so miserable. Do you think a med change would help? Do you see a therapist, that would help you process things. Do your parents know your ideations of suicide? If not then they or someone you trust needs to know!
All these thoughts & voices are to be taken seriously.

The teen years can be really tough for someone who has no mental health issues. One would like to think that with the right kind of help your quality of life could be so much better.

You are a well spoken person. Repost this in the schizophrenia forum & I'm sure you'll get more response's. People do care so please keep posting & update, even daily, as to how you're doing/feeling.

Take good care.