Dear T,
I hate that I only have 45 minutes a week with you and 3/4 of the time I spend talking about all the drama that is going on with my present day life, which I do need to talk about, and then the other 1/4 of the time when we talk about things with my family or my past I just sit there not talking. It feels like we will never get anywhere going like this, because there is just so much to talk about, but I always seem to forget or lose the words or chicken out when my session comes.
I want to tell you that even though I told you I wanted to quit therapy if we continued talking about my family, I actually do want to talk about them, but it is so hard for me to do that. When you bring up things like "abuse" and "post-traumatic symptoms" I freak out because I don't feel that way and never have until I came to therapy and then started thinking about certain things and it freaks me out and I don't know if I am misleading you or you are exagerating and I just get so confused.
I want to tell you that I think about you all the time and that you are such an important person in my life. I think that you are a beautiful person. I do. I know that that sounds cheesy or whatever, but to me, you are.