LovebirdsFlying,

I think that most of your issues are simply because you got so many negetive disfuctional messages growing up. But you have to realize that YOU NEVER DESERVED ANY OF THAT. You have finally been able to get what you truely deserve as a human being. No child deserves to grow up under the conditions you grew up.
The next time you begin to doubt yourself, go to a busy playground and sit down and watch children for a while. Ask yourself, does any child deserve to feel they are not worthy because their parent had issues?

You are around the kind of people now that you always deserved to be around. It is not about faking at all, you were never the problem. It is truely time for you to let go of the disfunction you never, ever deserved. I honestly feel that you are finally where you should have been all along. That is exactly how you have to look at where you are now and embrace it, you certainly deserve it.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes