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Old Feb 09, 2012, 10:57 PM
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I have talked about my ex gf/current room mate before, so some of you might know a bit about her by now. Right now, I just can't stop thinking about how much she doesn't understand mental health.

We're both on a MMORPG together, me very slightly, and her fairly involved with the community. She's joined an "alliance" in it, where as I haven't. Apparently one of the people in her alliance started sending mass emails to the rest of the group saying that she was leaving because she was going to kill herself, and that she was going through some really hard stuff and was crying and stuff... and her reaction to it made me want to throw up!

She sounded just like one of those a**holes who encourage people to commit suicide as a joke. She was like "I don't know why she needs to do it! It was so stupid, I just told her to f**k off and stop wasting my time, and if she wanted to kill herself so bad, get a f**king therapist." And I was shocked. I don't think she noticed my reaction, but I was trying not to say "I could have done that".

I'm not saying that I'm the type of person to mass email people that I'm going to kill myself, but I understand the place, and the desperation, and the cry for help.

I don't know how people can be so insensitive! Even if you've never been there, I don't understand how someone can't feel an ounce of compassion towards someone who is hurting. I'm not saying she should have talked to her or whatever, but I at least expected some form of sympathy. Even just a "I hope she's okay" and then moving on.

Has anyone run into people like my room mate, who get mad at you and push you (harshly) away even if your show of mental health issues was small and not directed at them. I've heard her talk about how she doesn't care if someone has mental health issues as long as they don't use it as an excuse.

I'm just really hurt by this, and I wish I could open up to my room mate but she hates any form of mental health discussion being brought up, and that's my life right now. I don't know how to talk to her, or even if I should. I can't leave, and she is still my friend, but I'm just so devastated.

I feel as if I came out of the closet to a friend, they said that's okay, and just as I'm getting comfortable with it and wanting to talk about some stuff I've been going through, I overhear a conversation where their queer-bashing someone. That didn't actually happen, but that sort of feeling is where I'm at.
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