Hello

I have many, many memories that are in-complete, unrecalled, patchy or just wrong.
Like you my childhood image is dramatically different to my own idea and I have a holiday I went on 5 years ago that until a few months back I did not even know we had spent time in one particular country.

I do not really know how to explain this, and to be honest until very recently I was not even aware, as they say you do not miss something if you do not know it is gone!

For me I think it may possibly be related to my d'x of BPD (borderline personality disorder) and I also have severe anxiety and dissociation so it sort of explains the lack of memory if these have, as my pdoc theories, been something present since a very young age rather than something that has developed with age. (I wonder if an illness could erase previously intact memories? And I am talking different to cognitive memory issues caused by meds/sleep disorders/eating disorders....)

I hope maybe such a simple possible solution is available for you. I would not worry about it too much, I get very disconcerted that I cannot map my own life, but when I stopped being anxious about it I stopped thinking about it and it does not interrupt my daily life anymore - it is not often you need to recall memories of events....rather than like..math skills or things (but then I do have huge and unexplained gaps in my learning ability, for instance I have a BA in writing and a very low grade in Maths, I struggle to tie shoelaces and do my 3 times table, but no specific learning disability or difference has been found, I am not wondering if it could be connected.)

Wow, thanks for this post it has made me think

and sorry for the lack of serviceable grammar/coherency/spacing/spelling. I am usually on better form than this but I am reacting & withdrawling from a vile mix of meds that leaves me pretty reliant on touch type and for osme reason it seems i cannot fathom commas and touch-type at the same time!