Ok, I was thinking about this tonight, and wanted to know if I'm correct here.. I sometimes get this weird 'entity' that seems to take over my thoughts at certain times and gives me really messed up ideas.. like I'll be talking to someone, and they're really nice and seem really cool and my brain seems to say "Hey, you should just punch them in the face and see what happens.."
and it's almost like an "I dare you" type of thing. Same thing happened when I ended up in the hospital because my brain kept daring me to grab my gun, load it, put it to my head and pull the trigger. I did everything but pull the trigger.. and I've done that twice in my life.

I don't think I would ever do it, but it's enough that I have to ask what they said during that time, as my mind was 'taken over' by something else. I picked up an exacto knife at work the other night and I got this "You know you could stab that into your arm and bleed all over the place.."

I've had these "thoughts" probably since I was a kid, but I don't know if this is what they call "hearing voices" because it's not something audible, it's just like my brain being taken over by.. something else..

does any of this sound familiar?