For maybe the first time in my life, i feel discomfort just existing.

It's not enough for me to fix myself, I feel i have to fix the rest of humanity as well, and that is impossible. So instead I just watch and hope things will get better . . .

I can lose weight and get a job, but i can't stop unfair social trends, some of which aren't even recognized.

Every time i'm on the internet i'm avoiding reading about these kinds of things, because they just make me feel like trash, yet i also know i'm just a click or two away from reading a new set of articles or some more youtube videos which will fuel my obsession even more.

I'm also aware these things have no relevance to my own life and maybe i should just focus on what's in front of me and get a job, get some excercise, etc.

But of course it's hard to stop the thoughts.