I am sorry that I didn't get this post sooner. My computer is acting up and the little red number got replaced so I didn't check up on it.

I think that was my problem too. I had friends and loved ones just no one I could trust to keep me safe. I don't even trust my therapist to keep me safe. I am hoping that my new therapist will be able to help me with that. Cross my fingers. Is there anyway that you can get in touch with these feelings, journaling, art, music? Maybe going to an art museum where you can cry at the pictures and not be able to hurt yourself while you do it. I have seem more then one person with tears in their eyes at the museum.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft