Hi Wikidpissah

Firstly, if you haven't already, i would go to your doc for a physical to see if your condition down below (you said you had scar tissue and stuff) has altered in a way that might require new treatment or to see if he suggests anything that might help ease the pain during sex. Granted you have probably already done this, but if you find your doc unhelpful or evasive then i would definately get a second opinion. Do you think the issues relating to your past may affecting your current relationship with sex more than you previously realised? If your not comfortable talking about it any of it with your current T could you seek the opinion of another therapist or counsellor perhaps? There may even be some helplines you can call if you didn't want to conduct the conversation face to face. As for sex sites, i don't know if Ann Summers ships to the US but this is the site i usually use. They can be a little bit pricey but their reliable, not to mention discreet so i would give it a go. Hope ive been of some help, if not then i want you to know you have my support anyway. Good luck.